OAKLAND -- Until she was 17, Carla Wright never took much of a shine to drugs. While her friends were experimenting with pot and alcohol, she stood coolly back, above the fray. And then, one day, in 1983, a friend introduced her to crack cocaine.

"I tried it, and I liked it," said Wright, 45, now a program co-director at the East Oakland Recovery Center. "I figured I could handle it."

But like countless thousands of other black Americans living in urban ghettos during the 1980s, Wright quickly fell victim to the allure -- and the soon-to-follow devastation -- of crack. First, she lost her job at a day care center. Then she stopped going to classes at Laney College. Her mother kicked her out of her house. She started squatting in derelict drug shacks and later drifted to the streets.

She did whatever was necessary to score another hit, sometimes spending up to $500 a day on drugs. She beat people up for crack, and was herself beaten. It was all part of the game. She even tried her hand at dealing, but gave up because she found using so much more rewarding.

Eventually, the police took away her daughter. Six years passed before, finally, she gave it up.

"Crack was absolutely everywhere," Wright recalled, grimacing at the painful memories. "It was on every corner, every day, all the time."

Wright calls her descent into the crack-infested hell that nearly destroyed her "the '80s bottom."

Rock bottom


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